Painting is a ritual, a nonverbal dance with the world. A ritual helps us engage in the messy, complex game of life, which painting both embodies and supports. Intense color, contrasting details, round shapes and spirals, and contradictory depth cues create an altered state. Texture is a parallel language, revealing the nature of conflict and trauma, which infiltrate and compete within the painting. These paintings are a struggle with chaos and competing forces, they are spaces for meditation and play, free of imposing verbal narratives.